<3 Connie...Christine <3

fuzzyducky @ 2004-05-12T23:05:00

2004-05-13T04:05:37Z

i dont think i know how to trust anything

Sometimes I really have to wonder

2004-04-14T11:42:02Z

I had a fun fun night minus being supppper cold. I went to my favorite Rufio, Senses Fail concert, cuz Joe is great and got me a ticket! I thought they were great even though cermak and joaquin didn't think so they can kiss my asss! nah.
After the show it was pretty nuts (but it's night in downtown chicago sooo ya), some guy tried selling us drugs, and other bums kept coming up to us, we were looking for food and everything was closed cuz it was late and it was freezing cold out. But in the end it was worth it.

SOOO i can't fall back asleep, and i've been up since 4:30 a.m. i felt pretty shitty but i took medicine and feel fine. And i hate waking up in the middle of nite not being able to fall asleep cuz then it makes me think soooo much. And sometimes it's not really good for me to think a lot, cuz it's not. People that know me know why i should stop thinking so much. But maybe its a good thing, or the worst thing.

Just no more damn it!

<3
Connie

Hello .

2004-04-12T01:41:09Z

I was in the mood for an update i guess, so ill start from my day break.

Thursday- Came right home and knocked out for 4 hours cuz im lazy and felt like sleeping. Went bowling with the always humorous Kenny Ehlin and i met Angelo, pleasent kid. Uhh i bowl like im retarded so it's always a trip to take a connie bowling. Went to my house watched girl next door she's hot i wanna be that hot.We ate icecream, but Angelo's weird ass ate a pickle. Who eats pickles? Seriously... "Hi nice to meet you i'm (insert name)can i have a pickle?"

Friday- Was a milf and her daugther night. We went to eat and ladies and gentlemen i drove their, and we are still alive, be happy the milf is. Have a party, enjoy some booze my mother lived, i dont count. We shopped i filled out some apps. This princess (not) needs a job. Then i hung out at my darling joe's house and we played frisbee, picked tulips, ate cupcakes, and drank tea. Okay im lieing we aren't that faggoty.

Saturday- Went to St. Charles saw the cousins saw Dennis and Simon always a riot. I tawt Dennis a ghetto phrase and he uses it wisely. Uhhhh met a bunch of pot heads and i wasn't "feelin" that sooooo i ate cake. Hmm compulsive lieing and im not drunk.....

Sunday- Easter=Church+Brunch+Grandparents+Family+More Food+Home=The usual.

Love Always,
Connie Christine

It's just another day, one more chance to get this right

2004-03-26T04:46:25Z

OoOoOoOoOoHHHH updating the jorunal but no one probably reads it n e more n e way.

so here are some secrets.
i like to make love to fat men
i like to make love to fat man with chicken and pork chops on the side.
(some cushin for the pushin)
I bought a condom for the bowling alley and plan to use it on a really fat guy.
Itd be gross if a guy was so fat that u couldnt see his penis cuz his flubber went over it.
Thats really gross.
pervert.

<3
connie christine alvarez

fuzzyducky @ 2004-02-22T19:58:00

2004-02-23T01:59:20Z

i feel broken

sometimes people just don't know.

Today will be a good day

2004-02-04T13:02:58Z

I'm up and i shouldn't be going to school today but I am.

I want to build a fort of marshmellows, but not eat them becuz if you eat to many marshmellows your stomach hurts a lot.

Does anyone want to help my build a marshmellow fort? I'll have a marshmellow party. Pfft just like two years ago i said i was gonna have a jello party and never did. But maybe this time i really will have a marshmellow party and put the for in my basement, and it will be the cool new hang out.

There's this really cool funnel cloud outside and i wanted to take a picture of it cuz it was neat looking but my mind drifted elsewhere like a child with ADD.

.x.o.x.o.
-Connie

-Why can't i breathe whenever i think about you-

2004-01-30T01:04:01Z

Oh im back and im giving this an update! How GREAT is that!
Finals were breezy.
My birthday was great cuz i was with all the people i adore friends, family, and bf but i missed both of my kellys. ::tear dropssss::
We hit up hooters and we saw physco mat who couldn't even walk right. Silly boy.
Uh it sucked cuz they said it was my birthday so the retarded hooters chicks sang. They should get chicks that actually have boobs to work there, i mean its pretty sad that even I could probably get a job there when i got older, even Leti hahaha. Christian and Dennis were throwing peices of chicken at me so Joe made me throw the pickle at them. I gave in to the peer pressure, uh ohhh. Missys bf got me anal beads ahahah so i wore them around my neck, how hot is that. You never see someone walk around with anal beads around there neck, im starting a new trend! Later Joe came home with me cuz that was my favorite birthday present ever! It was a good birthday! I love you guys!

Today was my teachers birthday and i got him a crown that he wouldn't wear cuz he's just too cool i guess and some pink party favors cuz hes not liking the color pink so im going to get him to adore it by the end of the school year. Its set as a mission! I got him a cool turtle not a real one but it was a cool one i must say. At lunch me and jeanette did some dirty gestures across the lunch room for missy and mandy. I think i slipped a hard on, hahhhah.

boredom shouldn't exist! pffft.
i want joe and some cherry coke

<3
Connie

.ew school.

2004-01-12T12:47:36Z

It's early...Going to my asshole school's gonna suck. Finals this week another competition Saturday. This week won't be stressful at all. ::sarcasim::

We won first at last saturday's competition and we finally beat highland by two places, and thats great cuz we've been trying to beat them for like six years. I was proud of the overly peppy dance team, Good job guys.

blah blah. I think i'll give a better update later.

<3
Connie

You're watching my heart being so close to you

2004-01-07T19:06:23Z

Yay I finally feel better after being sick for five days. I went to the doctor and i thought they were gonna stick me with a needle, but they didn't. phew.

My great friends came to visit me monday and tuesday and they bought me flowers and soup hahaha. Joe came by Monday too, oh man he's just too awesome. It feels nice to feel alive and able to move today.

Booo to going back to school, but i kind of want to go to see friends.
Alright well im going to lay down some more.

<33
Connie

<3<3<3

2003-12-31T08:41:51Z

Can't

Sleep

and

really

want

to.

like stars cover the sky hiding her heart fearing what he would find inside years took her away

...a song stuck in my head it's so lovely...

My dad's birthday is today he's getting old. poor guy. I hope he has a good one.

I'll write on when i feel like it.

-.N o t h i n g s fine im t o r n.-

2003-12-30T00:52:21Z

Just got back from Sydney's (a.k.a spongecake <3), half of it was spent being moron's with e-claire. If you're as weird as us your special and if you can belly dance like us then you're so so sooo gifted. Today reminded me of the time me, leti, and tiff attempted to practice our dance at my house, but Tiff video taped me and Leti doing some hott-stuff dancing ahaha that was good times. But i'm still a bit lost with this dance, and i think it's becuz i haven't gone to any pratices over break. Just a thought though, but i really don't want to get up early and dance for three hours and our dance teacher always has a cock up her ass that will never get out. It's a shame.

Yesturday was a nice one. I went shopping, i know it's so surprising cuz i "never" go shopping. I bought nice things, but my favorite was this adorable skir.I think I heart it so much i'm wearing it to sleep tonite. I again went to go see Peter Pan with vicky who i haven't seen since forever (was nice), joe who's always a charm (o: tony and steve. But vicky went off with shannon in the back row to do some hardcore making out. Ok that isn't true and if it was i would gag.

Oh yes my christmas ended up being a blast with me all sugared up. We had that game where ur on the screen and it looks so stupid but my goodness it was a blast i felt 7 all over again! I want it and Im getting it and that's all im ever doing. I received a sweater from hell,and i wore it and shook everyones hand and said hello my names connie and i am a lesbian cuz the sweater is every color of the rainbow plus more. So i can say i wore it once and I AM grateful.

It's time fore me to go now.

<3
Connie

fuzzyducky @ 2003-12-27T14:36:00

2003-12-27T20:39:14Z

The rumors of me and matthew being out of control loud are so so wrong! It was all Sara and Aaron you can't take them anywhere, just the jungle or something. Im ashamed of sara for not attempting to play DDR cock.

pssssh.

<3
me

-Merry Christmas-

2003-12-25T20:35:56Z

My family is pretty depressing today, no one is happy and it's christmas what losers, especially my dad what a homo. Yesturday was really fun with my mom though she loved the presents i got her i was so glad. I went to see my grandparents and i haven't seen them in forever becuz my mom was in a fight with my grandma so yea. She wouldn't have mind if i went to see them but i never had time since school started so it was really nice to see them. They were happy i was happy everyone was happy hahah. But the greatest thing that happend yesturday; we we're looking for Ethan he's two (my cuzin) and when i went to use the bathroom he was sitting in the sink playing with toothbrushes it was sooo cute and funny cuz he's tiny. We have pictures of it too, they're gonna be a hot item. I wanna go chill in the sink but i doubt it would be cute at all and no one would take pictures they would just hand me some ritalin. My cuzin was semi-drunk after three shots which was pretty sad but funny so i told her to take a nap and she was like NO NAP!!! really loud she was out of control haha.

I saw Joe tuesday and gave him his presents and he gave me mine and they were so cool. He got me the greatest hugging duckies, they're great i'm gonna think of some cracked out names from them but not right now.

Well i hope everyone has a Merry Christmas.
My mission is to go ice skating today and im doing it even if i have to make the rink.

<3
Connie

-I'm so glad you're mine-

2003-12-15T19:17:42Z

I'm nice and cozy at home becuz i'm a "slacker" and decided to stay home cuz i had the longest day yesturday and it was fun.

We went down Avondale avenue and listened to Avondale how cool are we?! Now we're gonna find ocean avenue and finish line..? How exciting and dorkish. I got sung to in a british accent ahaha it was the best and sooo funny. I love simons accent i usually hate accents but he has the best one by far and you can actually understand what he says. yea! Christain got hit in the head twice at the concert but he was fine i guess he was acting all cracked out though it was a good laugh i say. It was a pretty good concert not the best but pretty good.

Did some more x-mas shopping with jeanette and my goodness i saw so much stuff i wanted but i had to keep telling myself connie you're buying stuff for other people.::sad eyes::

I should go soon though cuz my poor little sister is in the hospital. She's been sick for two whole weeks already, and im going to get her a surprise!

<3
Connie

..::JuSt GiVe mE oNe lAsT cHaNcE AnD I'Ll NeVeR lEt YoU dOwN AgAiN::.*

2003-12-11T05:59:50Z

Today i will never ever eveeeer forget, hahah. So dance practice is over, me, Jenna, and Katie were all still waiting for our rides and i had sprees. Mr. Eaton comes by and i was like Jenna ask Mr. Eaton how Mr. Fierik is (it was like an inside joke) so she did and i started laughing with a spree in my mouth but it was a small peice so i tried to clear my throat but it just wasn't working. Then i was like dude i can't breathe cuz i was gasing for breath it was nuts we were all like laughing until we realized i was choking. So my teacher was close to giving me the heimlic but it finally went down or something i don' know what happend. And my throat was all scratchy and my eyes were watery and i kept snifiling and i came back and we all laughed about and my teachers like see what happens when u make fun of me hahah it was kind of funny. My voice was weird for like 20 minutes i guess. Yea so i bet some people reading this are like damn it i wished that bitch just chocked!So after all that my dad finally came and i told him and i dont think he thought i was serious and then we went out for food... hahahah. We had this super cool little balcony thiny built on our house on the second floor of course it looks really nice i like it, but my dad wouldnt let us walk on it yet cuz he wanted to see if it woul hold our weight but im only 2 pounds so im sure it would hold me. Oh man mr joe blake is the funniest dance partner evvvver, i couldn't get over how confused he was, and when he picked me up for this one part i would sore through the air hahah. I hope when we go on friday it's not as crazy as today cuz that would be pretty bad and i would laugh soooo much through out the dance. I'm looking foward to how horriable that dance is gonna turn out. I mean....How GREAT it will be. You know what else would be great times three is seeing my boyfriend cause he's missed by his girlfriend. (awww how cute.) <3Love<3 Connie

..::She lost what she never had::..

2003-12-02T06:04:16Z

Oh man im dreading tomorrow because i'll be in school from 7:30 to probably 9:30 will someone please save me...? Any one? Yea so i have to stay after school to go over our dance for a billion hours then go to the stupid game and perform at half time and then it's like what's the point its a weekday no one will probably be at our school in the first place annnd we have to stay until the game ends. I'm hoping my mom comes to my rescue and makes up a lame excuse for me to go home after we dance but i doubt it becuz she's working all day and nite. BOOOOO! Then it just makes it a million times worse because i'll be in a place that i hate very much. I just can't until christmas vacation thanksgiving break was far to short but it was enjoyable minus the small rival with my dad?
This weekend might blow ass too because i might have to go to wisconsin dells with the father maybe ill like end up with another case of the stomach flu....again, and i won't have to go hahah.
Today i got some of the stuff i ordered online in the mail i was a happy jumpy little girl and i saw the coolest chair in the world! It was a stool and then it was hotpink and had julius as the cushion it was so hott hott i'd lick it! I watched this cartoon called Totally Spies it was pretty dumb but i loved it and couldn't leave the table until there was a commercial. It's about these chicks that are spies and they solve things and yea its retarded. I want to become a Totally Spy when i grow up so i can solve mysteries and fly in the air and be invisable then i can spy on joe when he's dressing ahahaha nah.

<3
Connie

-.today im missing something.-

2003-11-27T07:45:40Z

It's time for an update a lots been up my sister doesnt live with us n e more its kind of weird without her here. There were times that she wasnt here u know but now its like she isnt coming back she's with my dad for good.

**SO that guy JOHN CERMAK plays hockey, football, in good shape, single, funny looking for a female, from hegewisch, has a hockey stick in his basement..** hahah.

Today was pleasent i laid around and enjoyed my day off from my crap school. Ramon came over and we made a cake but he half assed it cuz he made me do like everything but its ok cuz it was for his birthday. We came across the smelliest people ever, seriosuly they smelled of pooh, it was horriable. So i ran in the store and got febreeze and ran out to spray them with it and said it had to do with a project....Ok maybe i didnt do that but now it seems like a great idea.
Joe came over later on too and i think i frightend him becuz i was like on a sugar high and i still am now i wish i could leave my house and go to like a dicovery zone that would be so cool! That places was beyond great. I remember going there and like this one dumb kid peed in the balls so everyone had to get out.

Hmmm im going to go make a fort!!

<3
Connie

T for 2...tap...tap...tap...

2003-11-18T09:57:01Z

I woke up, and i guess i'm up for the rest of my day. I dislike this sleeping pattern I have but i really can't help it, and my mom doesn't mind it anymore cuz she knows i do get stuff done other then sleep. hah. So i tried very hard to fall back asleep but when your flooded with thoughts it's hard to.

I don't like noll at all and find myself wanting to get out of there so badly it's insane. I enjoyed it there somewhat before and now i just can't stand it, and i think it will disappoint my mom telling her how badly i want to leave that school so i'll just end up staying at that shit hole. A lot of people there and i assume in general are so stereotypical, nothing happened to me to make me feel this way but i was just thinking about our students. I'm glad i have those that I'm close to and my fantastic boyfriend because i k n o w i would go mad if i didn't have any of them. At times i miss my closeness with some of my friends, that yes i am still pretty close to but not as before. My lovelys that have their boyfriends and are usually with them a whole lot (at times im guilty of the same) and thats all wonderful and everything but sometimes i miss the constant nonsense we would talk about, and how incrediably close we said we'd always be. I guess we all drifted somewhat but that closeness is always there, and they're the people that know all your secrets and you know they'll never get out. It's no ones fault it's just life, and one day are massive slumber party will come true and we can reminisce. yay
It's time now that i cut my dad some slack becuz i know i've been difficult with him and have said unpleasent things about him and to him. There's always that time you don't like one parent or the other. I guess im just missing the times when it was just me, my sister, and my dad and how every sunday we would go off to downtown for brunch and then go to toy stores and just have the time of our lives. The times our entire living room was a club house, and when we would watch all the disney movies together and just have a good time. I miss when we went to go see plays all the time and stood at a hotel near christmas time. I miss the last time we all laughed together. I guess, i just take it out on my dad but it doesn't come out like that, hahah not at all. It's like now that he has his girlfirend and shes pregnet and we have another half-sister (hahah yes i know...) it's as though i dont have a dad anymore, I just have another place to stay over the weekend. He's changed a lot and he probably thinks i have too or that im just going through that teenage stage which in a way i suppose i am but there is a lot more to it. I want to tell him this but if i try i'm lost in words and he sinks me in his. I can only talk about how i feel to my mom cause we have a better relationship and i don't think the three (me her and sister) of us ever lost our closeness. This is all so sappy. hahaha sappy sounds funny. I think i just brought comfort to myself by writing out how i felt, writing is my drug.

<33 always,
Connie

If I had one wish this is what it would be......

2003-11-12T08:56:54Z

I just woke up from a great nap... It's pretty late/early, and i still have to finish up homework, but im almost done so it's not that bad sometimes i would like to sleep like a normal person but i can't. Today feels like Thursday and i wish it was becuz that means tomorrow would be friday and then saturday... Sartudays sleeping in <3, i'm pretty lazy sometimes. I could go on and on how much i enjoy sleeping...sometimes.

I went on another filed trip to this mexican museum it was pretty fun i guess it was better then being in stupid school. Me and veronica did our thinking poses and looked really intrested at the artwork... Some of it was actually worth spending hours looking at (all of its worth looking at but their are the few that intrest me), especially this huge picture I can't really describe but it was gorgeous. So i stood by a model and started telling a made up story by this model and people were listening and they believed the whole story it was great but i think i let them down when i said i made it up. ::tear drop:: Woah i just coughed and it was really gross. hahah yeah that came out of no where. So anyway the weirdest thing E V E R besides that sudden outburst, our bus lady came everywhere with us even the bathroom, ok maybe not but she came everywhere with us i thought it was so strange. She ate with us, walked with us, sat with the moms, tried to sell us candy bars, and told our teacher how she got great deals on clothes at Good Will. I felt kind of bad for her and stuff but i still thought it was weird how she went everywhere with us, she suggesteed this place to eat and we ate their instead of going to mcdonalds, and i was looking foward to mcdonalds that's the only reason i went on the trip becuz i've never been there before. eh hem.

Yesturday, we took our pictures for dance again and my mom made me take individuals, and i didnt want to but she got mad at me cuz i didnt take them for the spring. The camera guy had the coolest shoes on i wanted to steel them and hang them up on my wall? They were black and white...and um looked cool. I should finish up the rest of my homework and try to fall back asleep. Yea that sounds good.

<3
Connie

You're a touch over rated.

2003-11-05T04:41:34Z

I decided to finally update this, and today was such a drag becuz school is such a drag, and i hate it so so much their i think i want to transfer but im not sure if im going to for sure probably not. But i've been thinking abour it a lot lately, i guess we'll see. I kind of bought it up to my mom today, and she just said really don't u just want to finish noll. Today im paranoid and i dont like it.
Yesturday was pretty fun after school i went to jeanettes house and missy picked us up and john too chris was there too and we went to gaytees and she got us so much icecream it was the best ever, and i got a new windmill too its pretty and pink, red too. (be jealous) Me and missy ran outside with it like happy little children. Martin's friend Carlos has the funniest accent ive heard in my life he said jeanette like yenette omg i was on the floor laughing my ass off it was the funniest thing. I dont think i could have a serious conversation with that kid cuz i know i would start laughing hysterically in mid convo, yea its mean but still.
I dont remember monday... But my weekend was pretty laid back it was nice i guess. Saturday i slept most of the day and then went to Joe's hes the coolest guy i've met.hahah. and oh man when i got home i think i slept for liek 3 hours and the rest of the night i was up and didnt fall asleep until like 7 and i had to be up in like 2 hour and my dad was being a jerk and then i was thinking how crazy it is now how i can't really get along with him at all n e more he just pisses me off and is a moron. So i went shopping<3 my cuzins bf came over and i tried to embaress her and i told him that she didnt wipe her ass and all this dumb stuff. Like how she likes to hump stuffed animals... ew. no.
Yea so enough of that already.
x's and o's

<3
Connie

I have a cool boyfriend.

2003-10-31T05:01:47Z

Second time today i remember i wrote in this daily. I didn't really enjoy my today that much. I layed around and started to feel better but something was missing i just didnt feel all that great. Everything irriatated me and bothered me that usally doesn't. The weirdest thing made me feel better though. My friend pranked called me and i was laughing so hard my stomach hurt, it was nice. It was the voice he did, the funniest voice ever you had to hear it. classical.
My mom was in a bad mood and started yelling at my sister cuz she didnt throw out the garbage...? What pms can do to such a lovely women. So some guy thats putting in our kitchen floor tiles today looked like Jack Black he seriously looked just like him i was in awe. I wanted to ask for his autograph and then ask if he wanted to buy bread.

<3
Connie
I have a plan for tomorrow, being halloween and all. Sitting in a corner and playing with legos all night. No one will have as much fun as i will. No one.

fuzzyducky @ 2003-10-30T11:27:00

2003-10-30T17:27:50Z

I just woke up i feel like crap, my mom woke me up at like 6:30 but i couldn't move my throat kind of hurt and i felt all achey. I've already missed two days and one day cuz i was on a feild trip.
That field trip was so much fun me and missy only signed up for it cuz we knew we'd get out of class, and we expected it to be really boring. It ended it up being so much fun, and all the schools had like groups of ten or so and we had to design a cell phone and ours was seriosuly the best one even other schools were like bishop nolls got it but some other school got it and they weren't even that good. It made us soooo mad because we knew that we did better and so did other schools stupid judges only picked horriable schools around the district and they were like 4 white old men and i bet they were racist hah.
Yea so tomorrow halloween, tomorrow every school should be able to have off that would be nice. Im going back to sleep.

<3
Connie

Completly Overwhelming ...

2003-10-17T21:00:43Z

Hmmm i just got home a while ago and i would love to just sleep right now but i can't cuz i have to go back to school soon n e way for the game and dance. I hope my mom lets me go out after becuz me being on groundment and all over stupidity. But it seems like shes eased up, so thats cool but i havent talked to my dad i've kind of just avoided him all week and i dont really want to see him tomorrow but i dont have a choice i guess. My mom got me a purse and i can fit my head in it it's the coolest. hah. i miss joe. booo on that. I'm gonna try to sleep alittle. *mwuah*

<3
Connie

The classic case of boy meets girl....

2003-10-12T15:47:18Z

I finally talked to my dad yesturday about a lot that has bothered me for a long time. It really got to me yesturday, and i just couldn't stand how me and my dad can't really communicate. So i was just telling him all that, and it was such a releif to get it all out of me.

Yesturday i was up to shenanigans with Kelly we saw this hot hairy fat guy with short shorts on. Yummm. What i wouldn't give to see him again. hahah. Later on i went to the muse and i met tom's mom cuz she gave us a ride there. She's really nice. It was a thousand times better cuz joe makes me happy and i was with him. YaY! Then Came home got in trouble of course, that's why i had a discussion with my dad. So yesturday had the ups and downs.
Im fine now my cuzin and sister are going through pictures right now and they're making fun of me cuz i was a crazy child and always made a ton of faces when i took pictures. So i told them "don't hate the playa hate the game", ahaha even though that has nothing to do with n e thing. That line is retarded funny to me. Anyway, I need to start getting ready though cuz i think we're going to breakfast.

<3
Connie

tick-tock

2003-10-05T16:31:30Z

Saturday started out so horriable for me cuz i got yelled at twice by my mom and dad well not yelled at but u know when parents do there mean voice thing... Well mine do, and it was kind of my fault for my sarcasim and stuff and i felt really bad in the end. But when i seen my dad again i dont think he was mad at me anymore cuz he started to be really nice and stuff. Then i was really really bored and then ramon came over later it was nice to like talk to him and stuff again cuz we used to be really close but then we just kind of drifted and we made smores!! Ahahaha my wish about making smores did come true thank you ramon, we made them right and everything but they were too cholatey and marshmellowy there supposed to be that way though.... So i kept putting marshmellows in the microwave to watch them get big i wanted to see how big it would get but if it exploded i would have to clean the microwave...
I asked my dad if i could go out with ramon that night hes like no you can have people come here till midnight though and i was just like booo so ramon left and he came back to help me sneak out of my window ahahah. Jena called me and told me that her and ashley say "that moron better not get cawt sneaking out becuz im gonna be mad at her if she doesn't come out with us tomorrow."
I went to Joeee's and trevor, tom tony, and chris were over it was nice to see all them. Being with Joe made me forget that my day started out so horriable.
Ladies and Gentlemen i came home and my sister opened the door for me and i did not get cawt, oh it's true i did not get cawt. ahahah Oh man but she said my dad checked in my room and for some reason i was like just in case ill put some pillows on this bed and cover it with a blanket, and he did think it was me. When i came back i thought my room was gonna be really cold cuz i had left my window open just incase my sister wasnt up but cold it was not.
I was so sleepy yesturday to for some reason but when i got in bed i couldn't sleep and i wanted to go online but my dad woke up and would have started yelling and i didnt want to get yelled at n e more.